I am currently grappling with the reality of what it's like to live, like really live, "sober," and that it isn't all puppies and rainbows and having a perfect 6 pack. Getting rid of alcohol initially feels like a cure-all, like the biggest "if I knew then what I knew now" moment I've ever had. … Continue reading finding (and claiming) what is mine
Alcohol free. Teetotaler. Abstaining. Clean. Dry. Sober. What word do we use, and what does it imply? Do words or rules even matter? As Dr. Stanton Peele points out in his article on sobriety, the meaning of sobriety is to be not intoxicated and not impaired. He writes that "recovery/remission is about maintaining focus and … Continue reading defining your “sobriety.”
For a variety of reasons (money, time, unrelenting sense of "never enough" productivity) I recently stopped into a nail salon to get a very basic, quick manicure. At just $15, it barely matched the amount I'd normally leave for a TIP on my standard services - gel mani, pedi, eyebrows. As she was doing the … Continue reading i’ll go with the clear coat.
In my adventure I've clumsily fell upon a few books, podcasts, and blog which ultimately turned out to be the very stepping stones responsible for saving my life. As I read/listened to each of these, I started hearing them call upon the works of one another and I began to realized I was on the … Continue reading the early exiter starter pack
I love, love, LOVE before and afters. I love to compare and contrast and measure change. I used to do this obsessively with "progress" photos of my body, but looking at the difference between my drunk and sober faces is so much more fulfilling a hobby these days. I think because I see the old … Continue reading because before and afters are my *FAVORITE* THING
Jun 25, 2017. This was the day I decided to change my life, forever. I was tearful and scared and sick of feeling both of these things. I was drinking way more than I should have - wine nearly every night, drunk atleast 2 -3 times a week, and probably blacking out monthly, if not … Continue reading counting days – what are the rules?
Some recovering people call this period the "pink cloud." That period of time, be it 2 weeks, 1 month, 6 months - where you're in absolute awe at the world as if you are seeing it for the first time since you were 7. You feel like a kid again, everything is exciting and invigorating … Continue reading when the honeymoon is over
I've said it hundreds of times and I'll say it again: since starting down this path of, I don't know, alternative living (I still struggle with finding the appropriate word for this and me - "..sober"? "..alcohol-free"? "..drinking less"? "..cutting back, like, ALOT"?) the jigsaw puzzle of my life has been coming together. For 30 … Continue reading “trust the process,” AKA manifesting your universe
"The idea that creative endeavor and mind-altering substances are entwined is one of the great pop-intellectual myths of our time." -Stephen King, On Writing. My boyfriend randomly bought me this book when we first started dating. I love writing but I live for good grammar, prose, style .. so this work was right up my … Continue reading stephen king found his way into my universe
I absolutely love My Favorite Murder, and so should you. However, for those of you who may not be obsessed with murder and death but also with laughing loudly about these things - My Favorite Murder is a dark comedy/true crime podcast with distinct but palatable feminist undertones. It's the brainchild of comedian Karen Kilgariff … Continue reading “i’m a karen”