i’ve healed my body – now what?

As I mentioned in my previous post, I have re-started Gabrielle Bernstein's 42-day course, May Cause Miracles. And I am, like, really trying to commit this time around! I even set aside a "meditation spot" (AKA a meditation pillow and candle in the corner of Steve's office, wedged between his surfboard, 7,000 computer cables and an…

1 year alcohol-free: a week in review

On December 17, 2018 I celebrated one full year alcohol-free. From barely being able to make it to 5pm without a drink somedays.. to an entire 365 days?! Who am I?! And that's not even taking into account everything "else" that I was able to accomplish this last year...you know, little things, like buying a house and…

How a gym franchise saved my life

When running, I often find myself building motivation by imaging myself running from something. For you this might be a bear, a mugger, the police, your mom. For me, its often my past life. The old me. Everything I have overcome. Corny, yeah, but try it..you might surprise yourself. Have you ever run so fast…

PSA: Euphoric The Podcast is a thing, and it’s OUR thing!

We did it! We really did it. Karolina and I finally got our podcast up and running, and you can listen directly here, or search for us on iTunes, Google Play, Spotify and TuneIn. I will also be posting the most recent episode here on my blog (in the top right corner, above Recovery Bookshelf). So what…

split screen: vacation remorse

I recently returned from a lush vacay in Cabo - my VERY FIRST experience at an all-inclusive resort. We spent 3 nights/4 days in paradise for our friends' wedding, which was absolutely perfect and gorgeous. We had a wonderful time, but one thing I always do on trips is play this mantra of vacation-remorse -…

when insta-strangers trigger you

I don't usually get so worked up over something that it drives me to write. My posts are thought out for days, weeks, usually following some small, inciting event. And they are pretty neutral. But today I just felt so uneasy about something that I  saw on instagram of all fucking places that I had…

rock bottoms, high bottoms, false bottoms and everything in between

I have a hard time with the concept of rock bottom, for a few reasons. First, I wholeheartedly believe you do NOT have to hit a "rock bottom" in order to step out of the drinking cycle. It is OK to make an early exit before your drinking destroys everything. Of course, some people need…

you’re doing the thing!

I was at my gym yesterday, which is a circuit-based training studio. It requires the coaches to be able to multi-task and give direction to 2 or 3 groups of people simultaneously, up to 45 in one class. I was running on the treadmill, daydreaming myself away to anywhere but there, and was wondering what…

please don’t ever stop calling me ma’am.

This is going to come out way more bougie-sounding than it is, but: I recently did an interview with Donnie Boivin for his Success Champions podcast. For this show, Donnie interviews "Ordinary People, Entrepreneurs, Veterans, First Responders, Business Owners and visionaries that have a story to tell." I guess that's me. The Veteran part. I've…

stepping stones to recovery

I've recently finished Blackout by Sarah Hepola and am currently in the throes of The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober by Catherine Gray, and both have got me thinking what my first days of sobriety looked like. I mean like, first first days last June/July where I somehow strung together several weeks (only to dip…